Hideous

I am steaming-mad over this.  FIDM (my alma-mater) purchased all of the clothes from my final collection on the auction. That's fine, and theoretically they have the rights to do with them whatever they would like. 

This is when I start get mad: They put on a show in DC a few days ago, making it sound like I was having a fashion show there and used the PR collection to do so. They never invited me, and I had nothing to do with it at all. For anyone who attended, it probably was made to sound like I was a no-show or flaked out, for all I know.

Here is the absolute worst of it all: they completely mixed and re-matched up the separates in the worst way possible. It is atrocious. This is no longer my collection or vision at all. They might as well have put on everything backwards and inside out while they were at it. 

Look below. FIDM, I am utterly disgusted. 

Photo by Chris Leaman

I just had to vent my frustrations here. This makes me mad, but I just want everyone to know that I was NOT behind this show. I'm curious to know who in the hell "styled" these looks?

new new yorkers

We've been here only a few days, and Nathan already has a new freelance job working for his friend's production company. They do a lot of fancy work for their fancy clients. Nathan got to help set up for a big party for Louis Vuitton and Stephen Sprouse tonight at the Bowery. 

When I came to check it out, I found Nathan sitting on a ladder that was straddling the Subway stairwell.  He was plastering posters all over the Subway, which I didn't think would be legal. But I guess when you're Louis Vuitton and are dropping millions and millions on one party, you have enough money to do what ever you want. 

I wonder if Nathan can find me a place to hide so that I can crash the party. I have an evening gown, but no invite to the party. Hmmph!

so sad

These are my last few days in Portland. I'm dismantling my work studio and have been going through 3 years worth of saved remnants and fabric scraps. I still have so much to do, and so much to get rid of. Everything in my studio is for sale or up for grabs, and it's so hard to let go. I am excited about living in NY, but I'm really going to miss Portland. 

cabin fever

I made myself a ski-mask!

never in my wildest snow-dreams...

did I ever imagine we'd get this much snow! We got dumped on, for lack of a better way of putting it! Portland is shut down. There are no cars on the streets, just people occupying the lanes of traffic because it's easier to walk on. I went sledding three times yesterday. This is crazy and inconvenient as hell, but I absolutely love it. 

Edit: I love how I'm now seeing several people walking down the deserted streets drinking beers and booze. Because when it snows, there are no laws and anything goes apparently!

Snow creatures. The monster in the middle was spotted late at night on Burnside.

two miracles

Not only is it snowing, and I'm here to enjoy it (after getting my orders out and work done first), the biggest check in the world finally came today! Aaaaaaaaggh!! I can't believe it! I am going to cry. 

All the days of sacrificing and putting my personal needs last, not being able to pay bills, making do with very little, all in order to just buy fabrics or repair my sewing machines are over.  I can buy whatever fabric I want! I can run a real business where I don't have to make every single thing myself because I can't afford to do otherwise. I'm not going to be homeless at the end of the month, like I feared. All that incredibly hard work and years of struggling but never giving up has just paid off. It is all real now. It really happened, and it's just really hitting me now. 

And it's beautiful outside.

NYCya real soon

I'm in NYC again for a quick business trip, and will back again, permanently in less than 3 weeks! I was very hesitant and nervous about coming for this trip, but things went well, and I'm thankful I did. Though, I was devastated having to miss rare Portland snow. Enough snow to go sledding at Laurelhurst Park. Portland, I'm gonna miss you a little. I'll be back tomorrow, so bring some more snow for me!